I was so excited about my first three posts. I had blogged here days in a row, I was happy with what I had written, and I felt like I was learning.
Then Sunday I hit a rut. I knew what I wanted to write, but I didn’t know how to put it into words. When my husband talked it through with me, I realized I was still having a hard time wrapping my head around what humility is…how to define it…what it looks like.
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So I didn’t post at all that day…day four and I already missed a day. And almost every post since then has been posted a day late and back-dated. I guess this series is appropriately titled Learning Humility.
I am very much learning humility as I write…actively learning it.
Learning that I need to pray and pray and pray for wisdom as I write on this difficult topic.
Learning that I need to ask for wisdom and proof-reading and help when I don’t understand.
Learning that I need to accept grace and grace and grace again for myself in this challenge.
Learning that I cannot pour out if I haven’t first received, because giving people myself is not worth it.
Learning that humility is so much more complex than I first thought.
Learning that past success doesn’t guarantee present success.
Learning that being humbled is just as painful every single time, but it’s just as worth it every single time.
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Learning that I am struggling to complete my posts for this series not because I have a two month old baby, but because I’m not being disciplined with my time or commitment…and that is humbling.
I’m learning a lot…actively learning as I write and live each day of this series. This topic is becoming intricately woven in my heart and mind each day I as I ponder and pray and study what to write. And that is wonderful and painful all at the same time. Because humility is hard, and something that must learned…actively.