I love fog.It feels mystical and magical and secretive.
But when my life feels foggy…
When the future feels uncertain and unsure…
Then I begin to feel like I’m suffocating, drowning in the unknown.
There is so much about the future to be uncertain of…
I don’t know when we’ll have kids…
Or how we’ll afford them…
Or where we’ll live…
Or if I’ll keep working…
Or if I’ll be able to stay home…
Or where Travis will be working…
Or what might happen to the economy…
I don’t know where our ministry might head…
Or if the church will grow..
Or if it will stay small…
Or how God is using us…
Or how God is working in others…
I don’t know if my tutoring will go well…
Or if I’ll just come to a point where I don’t know…
Or if I’ll run out of time…
Or if I’ll run out of students…
Or if I’ll run out of patience…
I don’t know if we’ll face a hurricane this season…
Or what would happen if we did…
Or how we’d survive the aftermath…
And I could go on…
Sometimes it feels like we’re balanced on the tip of a mountain and one tiny change will send us tipping and catapulting out of control, off the peak and into the fog.
Because when it comes to it, we are humans and sometimes, most times, we just don’t know what will happen…what we will face tomorrow or the next day. So we go on with life as if it will continue in the direction we’ve set until something comes along to change our path. Until we stop and consider the uncertainty of life…
And the fog grows thick and suffocating.
But the Word of God whispers gently to my heart…
“Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows.”
Matthew 10:29-31 {emphasis mine}
I may feel lost in the fog.
I may not know what is coming next.
I may feel confused and overwhelmed.
I may not see the final destination.
But I know the One who is guiding my feet…I know His heart. I know His character. I know that He will not crush me. I know that He will not overwhelm me. I know that He will not leave me.
I know that He loves me.
He loves me.
He loves me.
He loves me.
He knows me intimately and yet He still loves me.
I cannot wander so far that He will lose me.
I cannot fear so greatly that He cannot comfort me.
I cannot ask a question so hard that He cannot answer it.
…yet even if I don’t see Him or feel Him or hear Him, I know that He is there and I can trust that He has a plan and I will choose to rest in His love.
I may have to fight to remember, to stay in a place of rest. But I will fight for right perspective, because He fought for me…because He loves me.
Be blessed
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