There’ve been moments this week when the words are buried deep in my soul and I can’t seem to find them…when I know that God is moving and stirring in me but I can’t see it.
And I’ve been here before….
And it feels so dry…
And I always try to figure it out on my own, but I’m learning that sometimes I need to rest in the silent…
I relearn it every time, but I hope I’m getting to it a little faster now…
The silence doesn’t mean I’m alone….
The silence doesn’t mean I’m not growing…
The silence doesn’t mean He’s not working in me and through me. It just means that I can’t see how yet…
Because I work to see what He’s doing and where He’s teaching me and how these moments will weave themselves together my growth and His glory, and in the midst of my desire to see what He’s doing I stress and struggle. And I think the problem is that I can’t see Him working in me and that I can’t see how He is using me and I can’t hear Him speaking to me…
But the problem isn’t necessarily the quiet, the unsure, the waiting…
The problem more often is in my failure to rest in Him, in my failure to rest in the knowledge that He has promised to make me into the image of Jesus.
And when I finally begin to rest in His promises…peace.
Because He’s called us to grow in Him, but He hasn’t called us to worry.
Because He’s called us to listen to His voice, but He hasn’t called us to be anxious.
“For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 1:6 (NASB)
My heart is so twisted that even my desire to grow in Jesus can cause my faith to falter and my heart to worry.
“Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful.”
He who has promised is faithful.
He has promised me life everlasting.
He has promised me hope in the midst of storms.
He has promised me joy during the pain.
He has promised me a new heart.
He has promised me an eternal purpose.
…and He who has promised is faithful.
So I lay down my striving to hear Him and I lay aside my efforts to force Him to speak and I simply rest in His arms of love. Because I know that my strivings cannot produce His righteousness in me.
Let’s hope in Him without wavering.
Let’s cling to Him in the silences of life knowing that He who has promised is faithful. He is working in us, because He has promised. And we can trust His promise, because He is faithful.