I'm learning to see

That there just might be

More than one right answer

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I was less than five minutes into that podcast episode when I found tears springing to my eyes, heart beating faster in agreement.

It was me.

It was all me.

Everything she said about feeling this weight, this pressure to find and make the right decision, it was like she had looked inside me and was reading back what she found.

I've lived, and I still live, so much of my life under the fear of messing up. Under the fear of missing out. Under the fear of making that one wrong decision that unhinges everything.

And through the painful, beautiful, soulful work of others, that they are graciously sharing with the world, I am beginning to see that maybe God doesn't work the way I think.

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Just maybe, He gives us far more freedom in our decisions than I think.

And

Most definitely

A bad decision is not near enough to unhinge God's eternal plan.

Yes

I can rebel my way out of God's favor.

Yes

I can make stubbornly, unwise choices that will lead me far away from who God designed me to be.

Yes

I can miss out on certain life experiences by choosing one thing over another.

But if I humble myself and seek God, I will not miss out on Him. No matter how many "wrong" decisions I make.

Because God is The Great Author.

An Author Who can write His plots to beauty and purpose and good despite the foolish blunderings His characters create when trying to write their own stories.

Because God delights to give us free will and the ability to choose based not on formal command from Him, but on the good desires He has already placed inside us.

Because God lavishes His goodness upon us, primarily, in the form of intimacy with Himself. And that gift can be given no matter where we physically are in life.

If we will just turn to Him.

If we will just humble ourselves to seek Him.

If we will just delight in His presence.

If we will just enjoy His goodness to us. His presence with us.

Oh to live in that space of freedom and joy and delight in Jesus. That space where my decisions can flow freely and confidently. Not necessarily because He speaks to me directly about every one, but because I am confident in His love and care for me, and resting in the trust that what He has already placed inside of me will guide my decisions as I draw near to His heart.

May we each learn to live in that space of freedom and trust.

Trust that He will give us everything we need to make good decisions as we draw close to Him in love.

Trust that He is powerful enough to accomplish His will in me and in the world regardless of my decisions along the way, as long as I am making those decisions in a posture of drawing near to Him.

I'm learning to see

That there just might be

More than one right answer

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Be blessed