I don’t always breathe freely. It’s easy to see when I’m not, but sometimes I close my eyes and try to pretend that everything is okay…that I’m not holding my breath.
It shows in my words. In my intimacy.
When I’m breathing freely, it’s easy to keep my husband close. It’s easy to speak words that bring closeness and intimacy.
When I’m breathing freely, I can’t contain the words in my mind. They flow out of my fingers almost too easily. They pour out…more thoughts than I can contain in my mind and heart.
It’s how I processes. It’s how I know I’m breathing.
Sometimes, there are no words.
Sometimes, I can’t find words to tell the simplicity of what I did all day.
Sometimes, there is nothing…I feel nothing.
Sometimes, I close my eyes and turn my head away.
Sometimes, I refuse to believe what I know is true.
Sometimes, I say…
I’m not sleeping well.
My husband should talk first.
Life is just so busy.
But I know…
God knows…
When there are no words, I’m secretly fighting Him.
Fighting intimacy.
Fighting surrender.
Fighting trust.
Once I finally open my eyes and surrender…the words flow again. It’s pretty easy to tell when I’m breathing freely…for my blog readers more than anyone. Am I saying anything? I mean really saying anything?
You’ll know…and I am hopefully not shutting my eyes.
Be blessed
<3
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Great post and lovely outfit. love the color combo, very pretty 🙂
Shannon
Thanks so much! I had a lot of fun pairing those colors. =)Alesha <3
Great post and lovely outfit. love the color combo, very pretty 🙂
Shannon
Thanks so much! I had a lot of fun pairing those colors. =)Alesha <3
Great post and one that I can totally relate to. I was certainly holding my breath last night and boy was it painful!
It is painful, isn’t it? And yet somehow I keep doing it for far longer than necessary….Alesha <3
Great post and one that I can totally relate to. I was certainly holding my breath last night and boy was it painful!
It is painful, isn’t it? And yet somehow I keep doing it for far longer than necessary….Alesha <3
Shannon, I was meant to read this! Totally for me if no one else. I can completely relate… I just have not been able to express it in words. Love love love this … your heart, your words, your outfit! They all glow girl! Thanks again.
Here’s my outfits … it was my first time linking up to WIWW:
http://www.ordinaryinspirations.blogspot.com/2013/02/what-i-wore-wednesday-via-pleated-poppy.html
Thanks so much! I’m glad you enjoyed the post. I’m heading over to check out your blog. =)Alesha <3
Shannon, I was meant to read this! Totally for me if no one else. I can completely relate… I just have not been able to express it in words. Love love love this … your heart, your words, your outfit! They all glow girl! Thanks again.
Here’s my outfits … it was my first time linking up to WIWW:
http://www.ordinaryinspirations.blogspot.com/2013/02/what-i-wore-wednesday-via-pleated-poppy.html
Thanks so much! I’m glad you enjoyed the post. I’m heading over to check out your blog. =)Alesha <3