Every Sunday night, my hubby and I have a small group of friends over for worship prayer and communion. Since Travis works at a church and we both play on 3 different worship teams, it can be easy to slip into “auto pilot” or “work mode” when we are at church.
We need times of pausing, reflecting, and worship…not just individually, but in community with other believers too. So this hour and a half has become our little pocket of time to set aside and worship. Last night my hubby shared what had been on his heart in regards to idols.
This immediately struck my heart and reminded me of an idol I constantly struggle with…acceptance. I want other people’s acceptance to satisfy my craving for love and worth…but that is WRONG. My acceptance and love needs to come from God alone.
So exactly how am I struggling with that? Well…here on this blog. There are so, so many good and healthy aspects of blogging for me. But there is the ever lurking, always dangerous threat of me trying to find my ultimate worth and acceptance in a little number located on the sidebar, or in the amount of emails in my inbox when I wake up in the morning.
Last night I sat and reflected on this. It will be a constant struggle…I know. Ultimately, I want to find my self-worth, acceptance, and love in my Heavenly Father. Because unlike our fickle lives, passions, and minds…
God is UNCHANGING.
He is CONSTANT.
He is WORTHY.
He is my MAKER.
He is LOVE…the SOURCE of Love.
I want Him.